I am 25 and he is 39. We have been together both physically and emotionally. I am a victim of childhood rape and It took me alot to be with him, now I truly love him and I cant move on. I have uterus damage due to the rape thus I cant get pregnant. I did get pregnant once but the baby didnt even make it to the first month..Now, after 5 years of loving me He just stopped talking to me saying this relationship wont work out and he has found someone else. We dont live together as he made me go to school abroad which he is fully financing. I dont really know what he does besides from what he tells me..I trust him too much. Now, He tells me to try to live off by selling my car off and hes totally scratching me off..He wanted me to go to school abroad it was never my need or desire. Now am just stuck with debt and hopeless love. I cant abandon my school as It is partially funded by the government. I love him too much..Ive been calling him so much at first he was atleast texting now he wont even answer my texts..I cant seem to get myself to eat or the past weeks. Im really dying...I dont know what else to do...He is unresponsive..I did not do anything to deserve this..He has always felt the age gap and very insecure about it. I always assured him that I love him no matter what..These few months I have been really busy with school...I might have not shown him too much love or time...Im devastated to my core..I just feel like killing myself!

After the first two years and no commitment you should of scratched off. No man is worth hurting yourself over. I know that right now you think that he is the only one but think about this for a second , how many single men are there in this world? Millions . Every girl deserves to be treated like a fine rare diamond and nothing less and if some guy isnt treating you like that then kick him to the curb. There is someone out there that will treat you like a princess and worship the ground you walk on so be glad that you are rid of the jerk. You are young and have plenty of time to find your prince so dont take seconds. About what happened to you in the past I am sure was and is painful but there is nothing that you or anyone else can do to change the past and if you want to have a better future you have to stop dwelling on what happened before and look at it as a way to make yourself stronger so it will never happen again. Men who hurt women or girls look for girls who they feel that they can take advantage of both mentally and or physically. Learn to love yourself and be happy with yourself. You dont need a man to survive. You dont need your now ex either. F him , you can do it without him. Dont even trip on contacting him anymore or send him one last email telling him that you have never been happier now that you have thought about it and that you are really glad that he has found someone. Pick yourself up and dont let him bother you anymore. THe only person in this world that you can ever be sure of is yourself anyone else is for your pleasure and if they dont give you pleasure then you dont need them. Finish your school and keep your eyes open because you never know who just might be there right in front of you who truly will make you happy.