I have people around me allday, yet im still lonely. I have to do everything by myself. Travel, eat out, etc. it is so easy for people to say get some friends. I have been hurt as a child by schoolmates, bullies etc. im 30 and its still hard for me to trust people as friends. But I would like a husband, or companion, or at least a boyfriend. I go out sometimes, I go to church, but nothing. Im tired of coming home to no one. And I dont want a pet.

well yes dat tends to happen sometimes....its depression.

i have experienced it at tymes as well....trust me its a phase, ju'll get over it soon.
till then try to boost jur ego.
walk helps alot. it releases a hormone, the endorphine, thats a happy harmone :) try it.
treat jurself, eat, walk, read good things, pray, try to generate the positive energy from within ju.
as far as people are concerned....ju need not to trust anyone. its a harsh world out there. trust only yourself. also lower jur xpectations (if any)
in case ov relationships, remember, girl sholud never forget that she doesnt need someone who doesnt need her.
pets are not substitutes for humans.
but yes....to survive, ju have to communicate....there will come a day ju'll find a great spouse or a great friend :)
as far as other chores are concerned, take a break for a while.....jur energy stores are depleted.

have a nice day!

p.s; its just a phase, trust me it'll be over soon, but if ju live alone, ju have to pull jurself out ov it. ju need the will power to do it.
focus on all the positivity in jur life...look at what ju have and others dont....Thank God for those blessings.