I'm a 17 year old girl and I'll be graduating Friday. But before I graduate i would like to write one final goodbye to an ex-friend/romantic interest.

We met my freshman year in high school.She was the first person to ever seem to care about me and reciprocate my romantic feelings. We started talking, became friends and later on became romantic interests to one another but we never became a couple. Later on into our freshman year she had to transfer to another school, not far off.

Even though she was already dating other people (on and off), we still remained friends, kept in touch over the years and hung out. Through those years, I still harbored some of my romantic feelings but did my best to keep them in check. There would always be these instances where she would do very hurtful things to me and not want to talk to me for awhile, sometimes even for months.

(For example, there was this one time where she threatened to kill herself over the phone so after she hung up and wouldn't answer, i got scared and called the police. She texted me a couple of minutes later telling me it was a joke, but then the police arrived and she got mad at me and didn't want to talk.)

My personal counselor and closet friends advised me to not come into contact with her anymore, but i always would, knowing how it would end. Last summer, she and her boyfriend had broken up due to a short string of sexual affairs she had with 3 other boys, causing a bout of depression in her. While I found the situation to be nothing but karma coming back to haunt her, I comforted her anyway and we began to hang out almost everyday (going to movies, eating out, jogging, hanging out in the park, driving around to different places). She knew that i still cared about her, romantically and didn't seem bothered by it. But, even though there were instances where she told me she loved me, she wouldn't allow me to say it back, most of the time. One day, while we were eating ice cream, she told me that she didn't care about be me, so i asked her why she hung out with me. She responded with, "Because, sometimes I feel that you're the only one that cares about me." When she told me that, part of me knew that she just might end up hurting me again. But i didn't care if she cared about me or not, I just wanted her to be safe and happy.

At one point I even assisted her in trying to convince her ex-boyfriend to get back with her (even though he had already started dating someone else, he would still have sexual relations with her.) I warned her against this, for she was damaging others(mostly his girlfriend, because she was unaware) by doing this, but she didn't care. This began to bother me a great deal. Another thing that bothered me about all of it was this one night, when she was talking to this other guy from my school and started kissing him. It was if she was manipulating and hurting all these people to get what she wanted. I confronted her again but she still didn't care. While I was very angry at her for her actions, i was also growing fearful at the fact that all of this would turn back on her, and seriously damage her in some way.

As summer was coming to an end, she suddenly didn't want to talk or hang with me anymore. After this she finally got back with her boyfriend. I did my best to try and figure out why, so i could at least have closure of some sort. But she always said she didn't have to explain herself to anyone and finally told me to leave her alone forever. So I did and not contacted her or anything since then. But just a couple of weeks ago she poked me on Facebook...I deleted it, and went on about my business.

Now that i look back on the entire situation, I feel a lot of things but mostly anger, sadness, betrayal, disgust and etc. For the past 4 years, I have allowed this emotional and painful cycle to continue with the ending always being the same. Well no more, I'm finally taking my counselors and friends advice in closing this chapter to my life and moving on. Right now, since I'll be graduating in 2 days and heading of to college in the summer, i feel that it's time I leave her and my feelings for her behind with high school and my former self. That's why i would like to write her one final note and send it attached to these 7 seven roses I've ordered to be delivered to her on grad. day.

I know I should just write down whatever i feel but it's easier said than done. There's so much i feel and want to say but i just don't know how to put it down on paper. Any advice you have, especially from people with lots of life experience would be very helpful.

Thank you.

Wipe your bum crack with it and give it to her. This should say everything which you need to say, without using words.