It's quite long, I apologise..
well, i'll start with my situation.. i have been going through a divorce, i have 2 sons, and met this perfect girl a few months back. I am going to jail for a while (something i didn't do but had no choice but to plead guilty) and i have a good job.
we started off by just talking and being friends, she was so perfect and loving, when we started "dating" i was so extremely happy with my life.. even jail didn't seem to bother me when i had her.
then all of a sudden she leaves me..
i know my ex contacted her several times making us fight, i messed up a few times with her by texting and calling when i get drunk, i may have been too "weak" for her. saturday morning i started texting her and she said she couldn't take it anymore and told me she never wanted to see me or talk to me again... and of course, in my drunken stupor i continued texting her. and it made things worse..
i tried suicide because of all of these thigs coming into play in the same week.. obviously i failed. (please don't judge me on that, there's a lot more stuff going on right now.)
it hurts so damn bad and i can't take all of these things at once. she is the type of person to just say f u and go on with her life, she will NOT change her mind once she has made a decision. very hard headed. but she is the perfect girl for me, she is so smart, intelligent, independent, a super great mom, and very gorgeous. worse is that we literally talked the day before about moving in together..
it makes me think:was i too selfish? should i have just let her do her thing? should i have been more of a man? i think if i had a better job and a big place she might have stayed.
i have always been cheated on and dumped, this time i fell quickly and tried to the best of my ability to not do the wrongs i have i done to the other girls with her. but i must have failed somehow..
i know i won't get her back because i messed up bad, especially after my attempt at suicide. i can't give her time to figure things through because she really hates me at this point.
i just need to know, how can i get over it? i feel terrible, there is nothing left for me and i don't know what to do.. i haven't eaten in 2 days, haven't slept, i don't know what to do.. out of all the things that i have had happen to me these past 9 days, this is the one that hurts and scares me the most. it is horrible. and i truely believe she is the love of my life... please help me..

Divorce is one of the most stressful life changes.

Divorce can uproot everything we know, evoke major fears and leave us feeling unsure of ourselves. Divorce can feel like walking around blindly in a pitch-black room, unsure about the next step, leaving us feeling de-centered, frightened, and alone.

Sometimes we can plan for our life transitions because they are predictable and universal, but the harder divorce transitions are unexpected, and seem to come out of nowhere.

Feeling unprepared for life’s curve balls is overwhelming and can lead to depression
and stress. This causes us to forget the benefits of transitions; that they are an opportunity for personal growth, insight, and knowledge. We know what we are capable of when we transition through a challenging time, and we also learn that we can survive things that feel like they will kill us.

Follow the link I have provided below to a page on DadsDivorce.com that explore 3 tips that will help you get through your divorce transition. You might also want to spend some time researching this on DadsDivorce.com as there are many articles in relation to this topic. There is also a forum of divorced guys there that have gone through pretty much what you are experiencing. They could be a good group for you to talk and share with as well.